I’m fat. I’m overweight and struggling. I am out of control, I can’t stop eating. I’ve hit self destruct and I can’t find a way back. I’m uncomfortable and self conscious. Working from home means that I don’t see people very often, on the rare occasion that I do see people I assume that they look at me and think ‘wow, she’s got fat’. I’m the heaviest that I’ve ever been.…

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Last week I mentioned that I was relaxing my ‘diet’ between now and Christmas, while I am still going to eat healthy I am not going to count syns, worry about meal plans or say no to yummy treats. I have bought a FitBit and am attempting to do at least 10,000 steps everyday, which is something that I surprisingly managed quite a few times last week, I also tracked…

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With December comes a lot of food temptations, walking through town and spotting those little wooden huts selling all kinds of sweet and savoury treats makes ‘dieting’ rather difficult. I am going to hold my hands up and admit that I am struggling, like really struggling.  This week at weigh in I had put 2lbs on, which is no surprise. I had a bad week last week and actually decided…

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Last week I mentioned that I was really struggling to motivate myself to stick to plan. Just admitting to that helped a lot and seemed to make me more focussed. I did still have a few days of naughtiness but overall I managed to stick to plan and as a result lost 1.5lbs. As for the week ahead, I had my binge today as I always do on weigh day,…

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I’ll be honest, I’m struggling, a lot. My motivation has gone. I gained half a pound this week, which actually surprised me because in all honesty I deserved to have gained more. My clothes are no longer tight on me because I’ve lost one and a half stone, the colder weather means that I can hide under baggy jumpers and coats and am not wearing clothes that result in my…

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