Two under two will never be. Two under three is unlikely. Two under four is what I am hoping for.
For probably the first six months of Aria’s life I was broody. I would see expectant mothers bumps and be super envious, despite having an awful pregnancy I wanted to be pregnant again. I would see happy couples excitedly showing off their scan photos and wish that the excitement was mine again.
Then things changed. Aria needed feeding actual food, she slept less and needed entertaining more. Motherhood was now all consuming. The thought of another no longer entered my head. It wasn’t that I didn’t want another, I just had no time to think about wanting another.
Fast forward another year, Aria is two and I am broody again. She is still all consuming but I have realised that a little brother or sister could be the making of both me and her, the making (and possibly completion) of our little family. Aria would have someone to play with and someone to laugh with. She will also have someone to fight with, I’m not naive after all.
I want another baby. There I said it. Spencer doesn’t want another baby, not just yet.
On our recent holiday we went with a friend and her eight month old daughter. Watching Aria with her daughter melted me. She tucked her in, cwtched up with her and even shared toys with her. She was like a different child and every morning the first thing she would say was ‘baba’, she was so excited to see her and to spend time with her. It changed her. Or at least it temporarily changed her until we came home, back to reality.
For now I have put the baby on hold. There are a lot of birthdays in our family around February, including Aria and Spencer’s and so ideally I want a baby from April onwards, preferably in the Summer. I know from experience with trying for Aria that you can’t plan these things to the month but we can try. I have it all worked out, we will start trying in around five months time, it will take a month or two for us to catch and I will be blessed with a Summer baby. Now to persuade Spencer…